Sean has had another bradycardia this weekend (an episode where the heart rate drops) which is not uncommon for a baby his age. Preemies forget to breathe sometimes and their heart rates drop during apnea spells. Anyway, the hospital wants him to be "brady free" for five to seven days before allowing him to go home so it will be at least another week from today for him to go home. Sigh.... While I am relieved a little since it's scary for him to have these spells, I am heartbroken at the same time. I do wish I didn't feel anything at all sometimes because it would make this a lot easier but I can't help it. I am growing very attached to my little babies. They have little personalities and funny faces. I know it will be over soon - I just have to keep reminding myself of that....
Evan is doing better I am happy to report. He is off of the high flow nasal cannula and on a regular oxygen nasal cannula. He is gaining weight and has started bottle feeding. I gave him a full bottle (35mL) today and he did great. Maybe in this week he will finally catch up to Sean a little. I don't want to get too excited though since I know he needs to go at his own pace.
All in all we are okay and coping. I know some of my friends are worried for me. I can say that I am pretty good for six out of seven days in a week. I usually fall apart a little one day a week but Steve jumps in when he sees my face fall and takes care of me. I am glad he knows me so well!
Here are today's pictures of Sean and Evan. Plus another video of Sean.... (only because I want to show them off....)